Cynthia Ann Matthew's

I just want to tell everyone a little bit about my daughter Cindy Ann Matthews and what she was all about and what she was like as a baby and a little girl and a woman.Cindy was born in Westminister hospital in Garden grove,Ca.She was so beautiful when I first seen her with the most blackest hair that I could ever imagine.She was a good baby and so full of life and alway's smiling and cooing.As she started to grow she got her personality and got to be a pretty rambunctious little girl.She loved animal's and especially dog's and bird's.Her one dog ginger was so funny and would just play with Cindy for hour's and chase her and push her down and Cindy would just get right back up and start all over again running around ginger and getting her to jump up on her and she would just laugh and laugh.Cindy was a very giving little girl and very loving and cried very easily as everything just touched her heart so.She ended up having one brother and four sister's and they all use to play together and even though there were alot of kid's mom managed to keep them all fed and clothed and played with them and as each one got older they still were pretty tight when it came to their young teens and young adult hood.When Cindy went to Ohio thing's changed so very much for the whole family and it wasn't a good time.She would come and visit and go back and forth but her greatest wish was to one day more to Washington to be with her two daughters and grandbaby, along with her two twin sisters, her older sister, her stepdad and myself, along with many other family members and her son  are.Cindy tried throughout her life to connect and she just could never get to where she wanted to be.She had so many difficult road's she went down but yet she kept hoping that one day she would make it through those difficcultie's.She fought addiction badly and she kept facing it over and over again and it just never came to be for her.Before her death she would call me every single day at the same time each morning before Joshua got up for school.Oh we adopted Joshua at 3months old and Cindy was happy he was being taken care of by his grandparent's .He finally was adopted and given our name and Cindy got to visit and call and talk to him as he grew older.She was hoping one day her life would get together and she would regain all her children .She never gave up on that ever!!She loved her kid's so very much but her addiction's kept her from gaining them back and her not getting her life together,but I never would give up and kept praying that soon one day she would be able to come home and she could get her life back on track.Her sister's prayed and prayed also for her recovery ,but it was not to be.I cannot tell you how much my heart broke when I got that phone call when she didn't call that morning and it was someone else calling me about my little raggedy ann.That's what I alway's called her!! I still have her raggedy ann dolly's.When she didn't call that morning I knew as mother's do something was not right.When they told me she had died I just felt as if my heart had been pulled out of my body and stomped on over and over again..I could not take it and still fight away the tear's but one consolation I have is that she had given her life to the Lord and I knew she was with Jesus in heaven to feel no more pain or sorrow or grief.She did know the lord but didn't know how to fight against her addiction's.We`loved her unconditionally and never for one time did I as her mama ever give up hope for my baby girl.It will never leave my heart (her death) because that's just the way thing's go for mom's and loved one's.I do know that my baby girl is in heaven waiting for me and her family.No more tear's baby girl,no more pain or sorrow as you rejoice in the Lord in heaven.I love you my baby girl raggedy ann and that and your memories will alway's remain in my heart and the deepest love you could ever want from your mama is with you baby.I love you and you are so dearly and greatly missed.